Of School and Ear Piercings

It’s been a week since I last slept well and honestly, this isn’t doing me good. I have been struggling to do better in school and all these failed attempts are killing me. I got my advisory grades. No F’s but I can do better. The results depressed me. I don’t know what happened to me. That grade report slapped me on the face; showed me what I’m worth.

I am currently under the process of self-mutilation, one of the many goals I have in life. I got my ear pierced - again. It took me a minute to ready myself though, a record high. The past two piercings were a piece of cake, I don’t know what’s up with this one. I have three now. I’m thinking of having a tattoo (a small one on my calves) but am thinking otherwise. My emaciated body might not handle the pain.

In ES class something struck me. I felt a sudden surge of emptiness. I need my God.